deborah baninya~~

teenage girl. i have sweet sour part in my life and an ababil girl. party little girl, urban nite, shopping, chit chat, popularity, new friends, trouble, love life, and always want to know everything. BE A GOOD GIRL. BE A GOOD DAUGHTER. BE A GOOD FRIEND. BE A GOOD GIRLFRIEND.

Friday, December 24, 2010

MERRY CHRISTMAS

ohmygoddddd. i love this moment. Jesus Christ was born. not just for today, but everyday in Christian's heart. Yeah, important day for me. and maybe for you. idk :) i love Christmas even though i can't feel the snow in Indonesia. but one day, i'll play throwing and catching with my family or my friend or my boyF. I WILL. and i hope i can celebrate Christmas in New York or Paris or London.

ohhh i hope soo. okay, even though i don't go somewhere lyk out of town or overseas. it's enough. just singing with my family in front of Christmas tree, with lots of cakes, jokes, smiles and loves. at 8 pm, we played glee cast Christmas, and we dance together. hahihuheho. and the best part is my aunt gave to me and my sista lots of money :33333 HO HO HO this is the real Christmas that i want. she told me, that we can shopping after the party (but we aren't, cause the party is over at 11.30 pm). after that we sang church song andthen we listend Reverand's sermon. hhhhh, love love love. okay just that. now............... December 25th 2010 going to 2011 :) lets see our new year. be a good year or not? Jesus knows all. so don't stop hope and pray to Him. so everything will be okay.

and Jesus please make Santa is real. and i hope he's in Indonesia, precisely at my home. i have 5 wishes :
1. i want Jesus always beside me.
2. i want my family always happy, hhmm maybe just a lil' problem, but just a little so i hope many many miracle or love between us
3. i wanna find my true best friend, not FAKE best friend, not backstabber, not loser, not liar.
4. i want new phone, cause i lost my phone.
5. and i wanna be a wise girl, a kind girl, a smart girl. so i can make my parents happy with my scores and proud with myself :)

please God, for number 1, i hope You're beside me.... now.
i can't see You, but i can't feel that you always protected me. ME LOVE YOU JESUS :) BYE all, GodLoveYou.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

hellu. i'm come back

heeyyyy,
long time no post here

a few weeks i got some hurts :/ trouble :(( cried :'( laughed :D happy moment :) and many more. done with my exams and start to my HOLIDAY!! yiiippiiee. HEY christmas, HEY 2011 ! ! but before that i hv one task -_- piano concert by cinere musik. k, its not bad. but my partner in concert is high school student (you know i'm junior hs student) and i don't know they very well. we never meet before, it makes me lazy.
hhhhhhh, i'm tired to exercise! cause i look poor or stupid or something like that.

huaaa, but i wanna tell you about the sweet conv. i got this from my tumblr (http://www.newyorkparty.tumblr.com ). almost cry cause it always stuck in my head till right now. k, let me tell me you the dialog. please, sit down, stop to tweeting or tumblring or chatting.

Brought tears to my eyes.

Boy: Hey, hun!
Girl: Hey.
Boy: I missed you at school today. Why weren't you there?
Girl: Yeah, I had to go to the doctor.
Boy: Oh really? Why?
Girl: Oh, nothing. Just some annual shots, that's all.
Boy: Oh.
Girl: So what did you guys do in Math today?
Boy: You didn't miss anything that great, just a lot of notes.
Girl: Okay, good.
Boy: Yeah.
Girl: Hey, I have a question to ask.
Boy: Okay, ask away.
Girl: How much do you love me?
Boy: You know I love you more than anything in this world.
Girl: Yeah.
Boy: Why did you ask?
Girl: *silence*
Boy: Is something wrong?
Girl: No. Nothing at all. Um. How much do you care about me?
Boy: I would give you the world in a heartbeat if I could.
Girl: You would?
Boy: Yeah of course I would. *sounding worried* Is there something wrong?
Girl: No, everything's fine.
Boy: Are you sure?
Girl: Yeah.
Boy: Okay. I hope so.
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: I would take a bullet for you any day, hun.
Girl: Really?
Boy: Any day. Now, seriously, is there something wrong?
Girl: No, I'm fine. You're fine. We're fine. Everyone and everything is fine.
Boy: Okay.
Girl: Well, I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow at school.
Boy: Alright, bye. I love you!
Girl: Yeah. I love you too. Bye.

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL

Boy: Hey, have you seen my girlfriend today?
Friend: No.
Boy: Oh.
Friend: She wasn't here yesterday, either.
Boy: I know. She was acting all weird on the phone last night.
Friend: Well, dude, you know how girls are sometimes.
Boy: Yeah, but not her.
Friend: I don't know what else to say, man.
Boy: Okay, well I gotta get to English. I'll see ya after school.
Friend: Yeah I gotta get to Science. Later.

THAT NIGHT

Girl: Hello?
Boy: Hey.
Girl: Oh, hey.
Boy: Why weren't you at school today?
Girl: Uh, I had another appointment with the doctor.
Boy: Are you sick?
Girl: Um, I have to go. My mom’s calling on the other line.
Boy: I’ll wait.
Girl: It may take a while. I’ll call you later.
Boy: Alright. I love you.

-very long pause-

Girl: *with a tears in her eyes* Look, I think we should break up.
Boy: What?!
Girl: It’s the best thing for us right now.
Boy: Why?
Girl: I love you.

THE GIRL DOESN’T COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE

Boy: Hey dude.
Friend: Hey.
Boy: What’s up?
Friend: Nothing. Hey, have you talked to your ex lately?
Boy: No.
Friend: So you didn’t hear?
Boy: Hear what?
Friend: Um, I don’t know if I should be the one to tell you…
Boy: Dude, just tell me!
Friend: Uh. Call this number, 433-555-3468.
Boy: Okay, thanks!

BOY CALLS THE NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL

Voice: Hello, Suppam County Hospital. This is Nurse Victoria.
Boy: Uh, I must have the wrong number. I’m looking for my friend.
Voice: What is their name, sir?

*boy gives info*

Voice: Yes, this is the right number. She’s one of our patients here.
Boy: Really? Why? What happened? How is she?
Voice: Her room number is 646 in building A, suite 3.
Boy: WHAT HAPPENED?!
Voice: Please come by, sir, and you can see her. Goodbye.
Boy: WAIT! NO!

THE BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM 646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. THE GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.

Boy: Oh my God, are you okay?
Girl: *silence*
Boy: Dear, talk to me!
Girl: I..
Boy: You what?
Girl: I have cancer and I’m on life support.
Boy: *breaks into tears*
Girl: They're taking me off tonight.
Boy: Why?
Girl: I wanted to tell you, but I couldn’t .
Boy: Why didn’t you tell me?
Girl: I didn’t want to hurt you.
Boy: You could never hurt me.
Girl: I just wanted to see if you felt about me the same as I felt about you.
Boy: Huh?
Girl: I love you more than anything. I would give you the world in a heartbeat. I would die for you and take a bullet for you.
Boy: *crying*
Girl: Don’t be sad. I love you and I’ll always be there with you.
Boy: Then why did you break up with me?
Nurse: Young man, visiting hours are over.

The boy leaves and later that night the girl is taken off of life support and dies, but what the boy didn’t know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time. She only broke up with him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks left to live and thought that it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.

NEXT DAY
The boy is found dead with a gun in one hand and a note in the other.
THE NOTE SAID:
“I told her that I would take a bullet for her, just like she said she would die for me.”