MERRY CHRISTMAS

ohmygoddddd. i love this moment. Jesus Christ was born. not just for today, but everyday in Christian's heart. Yeah, important day for me. and maybe for you. idk :) i love Christmas even though i can't feel the snow in Indonesia. but one day, i'll play throwing and catching with my family or my friend or my boyF. I WILL. and i hope i can celebrate Christmas in New York or Paris or London.

ohhh i hope soo. okay, even though i don't go somewhere lyk out of town or overseas. it's enough. just singing with my family in front of Christmas tree, with lots of cakes, jokes, smiles and loves. at 8 pm, we played glee cast Christmas, and we dance together. hahihuheho. and the best part is my aunt gave to me and my sista lots of money :33333 HO HO HO this is the real Christmas that i want. she told me, that we can shopping after the party (but we aren't, cause the party is over at 11.30 pm). after that we sang church song andthen we listend Reverand's sermon. hhhhh, love love love. okay just that. now............... December 25th 2010 going to 2011 :) lets see our new year. be a good year or not? Jesus knows all. so don't stop hope and pray to Him. so everything will be okay.

and Jesus please make Santa is real. and i hope he's in Indonesia, precisely at my home. i have 5 wishes :
1. i want Jesus always beside me.
2. i want my family always happy, hhmm maybe just a lil' problem, but just a little so i hope many many miracle or love between us
3. i wanna find my true best friend, not FAKE best friend, not backstabber, not loser, not liar.
4. i want new phone, cause i lost my phone.
5. and i wanna be a wise girl, a kind girl, a smart girl. so i can make my parents happy with my scores and proud with myself :)

please God, for number 1, i hope You're beside me.... now.
i can't see You, but i can't feel that you always protected me. ME LOVE YOU JESUS :) BYE all, GodLoveYou.

hellu. i'm come back

heeyyyy,
long time no post here

a few weeks i got some hurts :/ trouble :(( cried :'( laughed :D happy moment :) and many more. done with my exams and start to my HOLIDAY!! yiiippiiee. HEY christmas, HEY 2011 ! ! but before that i hv one task -_- piano concert by cinere musik. k, its not bad. but my partner in concert is high school student (you know i'm junior hs student) and i don't know they very well. we never meet before, it makes me lazy.
hhhhhhh, i'm tired to exercise! cause i look poor or stupid or something like that.

huaaa, but i wanna tell you about the sweet conv. i got this from my tumblr (http://www.newyorkparty.tumblr.com ). almost cry cause it always stuck in my head till right now. k, let me tell me you the dialog. please, sit down, stop to tweeting or tumblring or chatting.

Brought tears to my eyes.

Boy: Hey, hun!
Girl: Hey.
Boy: I missed you at school today. Why weren't you there?
Girl: Yeah, I had to go to the doctor.
Boy: Oh really? Why?
Girl: Oh, nothing. Just some annual shots, that's all.
Boy: Oh.
Girl: So what did you guys do in Math today?
Boy: You didn't miss anything that great, just a lot of notes.
Girl: Okay, good.
Boy: Yeah.
Girl: Hey, I have a question to ask.
Boy: Okay, ask away.
Girl: How much do you love me?
Boy: You know I love you more than anything in this world.
Girl: Yeah.
Boy: Why did you ask?
Girl: *silence*
Boy: Is something wrong?
Girl: No. Nothing at all. Um. How much do you care about me?
Boy: I would give you the world in a heartbeat if I could.
Girl: You would?
Boy: Yeah of course I would. *sounding worried* Is there something wrong?
Girl: No, everything's fine.
Boy: Are you sure?
Girl: Yeah.
Boy: Okay. I hope so.
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: I would take a bullet for you any day, hun.
Girl: Really?
Boy: Any day. Now, seriously, is there something wrong?
Girl: No, I'm fine. You're fine. We're fine. Everyone and everything is fine.
Boy: Okay.
Girl: Well, I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow at school.
Boy: Alright, bye. I love you!
Girl: Yeah. I love you too. Bye.

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL

Boy: Hey, have you seen my girlfriend today?
Friend: No.
Boy: Oh.
Friend: She wasn't here yesterday, either.
Boy: I know. She was acting all weird on the phone last night.
Friend: Well, dude, you know how girls are sometimes.
Boy: Yeah, but not her.
Friend: I don't know what else to say, man.
Boy: Okay, well I gotta get to English. I'll see ya after school.
Friend: Yeah I gotta get to Science. Later.

THAT NIGHT

Girl: Hello?
Boy: Hey.
Girl: Oh, hey.
Boy: Why weren't you at school today?
Girl: Uh, I had another appointment with the doctor.
Boy: Are you sick?
Girl: Um, I have to go. My mom’s calling on the other line.
Boy: I’ll wait.
Girl: It may take a while. I’ll call you later.
Boy: Alright. I love you.

-very long pause-

Girl: *with a tears in her eyes* Look, I think we should break up.
Boy: What?!
Girl: It’s the best thing for us right now.
Boy: Why?
Girl: I love you.

THE GIRL DOESN’T COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE

Boy: Hey dude.
Friend: Hey.
Boy: What’s up?
Friend: Nothing. Hey, have you talked to your ex lately?
Boy: No.
Friend: So you didn’t hear?
Boy: Hear what?
Friend: Um, I don’t know if I should be the one to tell you…
Boy: Dude, just tell me!
Friend: Uh. Call this number, 433-555-3468.
Boy: Okay, thanks!

BOY CALLS THE NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL

Voice: Hello, Suppam County Hospital. This is Nurse Victoria.
Boy: Uh, I must have the wrong number. I’m looking for my friend.
Voice: What is their name, sir?

*boy gives info*

Voice: Yes, this is the right number. She’s one of our patients here.
Boy: Really? Why? What happened? How is she?
Voice: Her room number is 646 in building A, suite 3.
Boy: WHAT HAPPENED?!
Voice: Please come by, sir, and you can see her. Goodbye.
Boy: WAIT! NO!

THE BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM 646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. THE GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.

Boy: Oh my God, are you okay?
Girl: *silence*
Boy: Dear, talk to me!
Girl: I..
Boy: You what?
Girl: I have cancer and I’m on life support.
Boy: *breaks into tears*
Girl: They're taking me off tonight.
Boy: Why?
Girl: I wanted to tell you, but I couldn’t .
Boy: Why didn’t you tell me?
Girl: I didn’t want to hurt you.
Boy: You could never hurt me.
Girl: I just wanted to see if you felt about me the same as I felt about you.
Boy: Huh?
Girl: I love you more than anything. I would give you the world in a heartbeat. I would die for you and take a bullet for you.
Boy: *crying*
Girl: Don’t be sad. I love you and I’ll always be there with you.
Boy: Then why did you break up with me?
Nurse: Young man, visiting hours are over.

The boy leaves and later that night the girl is taken off of life support and dies, but what the boy didn’t know is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time. She only broke up with him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks left to live and thought that it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.

NEXT DAY
The boy is found dead with a gun in one hand and a note in the other.
THE NOTE SAID:
“I told her that I would take a bullet for her, just like she said she would die for me.”

this song is coloring my day

David Choi - By My Side

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking
I am waiting as the time goes by
I think of you with every breath I take
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you
I just wanna kiss you
I just wanna love you all my life
I normally wouldn't say this
but I just can't contain it
I want you here forever
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside
and all the tears you cry
they're ending right here
I'll heal your heart and soul
I'll keep you oh so close
Don't worry; I'll never let you go
You're all I need, you're everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you
Call me crazy, but its true
I love you.
I didn't think that it would be
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

~~~~i'm speechless when i know that my boyf can play guitar with this song. cause i love this song very muccchh. hhm maybe i always play this song everyday on my ipod. wuwuwu and he told me that he'll play guitar with this song to me. YOU MAKE ME MELTING UNTIL NOW! aaaa ily BYE :*

got some trouble (with familly)

hello :) actually this smile emotion it's fake smile cause i'm have bad news.

my dad and my mom is fighting :( always just cause simple trouble. my garden is on renovation. my dad like gardening, but my mom doesn't like his hobby cause my dad just plants that he likes. and after that, when my mom want to renovation, she forgot and remove some plant of my dad.

and when my dad was at home, he's angry to much. and usually my mom keep silent, but not like now. my mom is angry too. yeah, it's really really bad. a great war between my parents. i just can peeked through my bedroom door. and crying, i told to my sister that it's very bad. i can't stop that tears until my friend, amanda called me. i told to her. and she's said "olla, be patient be strong. God have new way to your family. your parents being better" big thanks, big hug, big kiss to you amanda.

i'm scared if my mom and my dad is broken. and i'm brokenhome. please, do that you're not a kid. please do like you're both are my parents. please God, make this situation is being good. please i don't know how to fix this problema, i think its more than enough. i'm crying but i realize, tears can't help me to solve my problem. JESUS i need you more than anything now.



dad mom please promise to me and my sister, that you both will make it up and your love never broken. promise like 18 years ago (maybe, i forget :p) you make some promise to God and the others, that you'll never broke until God makes someone of you is died (ohmyGod don't do it God, until i have child and they grow up :))

p s : please mom dad, i hope you both can make it up

HEY PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME HATE YOU!!

okay, stop please! stop attack my bestie! he's not wrong, but why you always want he to apologize first? i will protect my bestfriend. eventhough he is not really likes to protect.

hey my ex and my bestfriend ex
don't be haters
if he had some trouble with you, so please forgive his fault
have you are taught to forgive by your parents?
i hope the answer is "yes"
but i doubt it
please change your attitude
i think it can makes you have many friends
not to have enemy like now

no one want to have enemy. but why you want to have enemy? and the most problem your enemy is your ex-bestfriend. that he always there for you, that he always listen your story but you are just wasting. yeah it's bad. don't do it again and CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE. okay thanks dude, i hope you read my post, and you just realize that you are wrong! BYE :*

trouble maker

dia yang nyari masalah, dia yang minta maaf

mungkin gua sering bgt punya masalah sm dia. walau dia suka bilang kalo gua adalah bestfriendnya, itu ga begitu berarti buat gua. menurut gua, kata bestfriend yang sering dia lontarkan itu ga berarti apa apa kalo hasilnya yaa gini gini aja. oke kita kasih dia julukan 'b'

3 hari yang lalu gua sempet marahan sama dia. hhhm alasannya ga jelas, dia anaknya moody bgt, susah di tebak. oke oke gua ceritain, but it's secret okay? manda sama nana, mereka satu kelas sama gua, mereka temen gua, dan mereka bisa gua bilang bestfriend. mereka suka curhat sama gua, begitu juga gua. tapi 'b' ga suka kalo gua temennan sm mereka berdua. katanya gua berubah, katanya gua udh lama ga terbuka sm dia. tapi kalo gua curhat sama dia, ga bakal ada response yang bener, adanya juga rahasia gua kesebar ke seluruh penjuru angkasa. jadinya gua curhat sama manda, nana. yaa paling enggak mereka bisa ngasih solusi yang bisa buat gua berpikir dengan lancar. bukan gua aja yang curhat, tp mereka juga. dan itu ngebuat kita lengket, right?

'b' mulai sinis. seharian waktu itu gua di kacangin. pas di perpus, dia nanya gini :
"la, kenapa?"
"kenapa apa deh?"
"ya lo berubah"
"gua ga ngerasa berubah, mungkin lu yang berubah"

oke you know. when we are at the library, we must still silent. dan dia kita sempet conv kea gitu di tengah sunyinya perpustkaan. tapi bu sisca yang baik ciamik berkoar di siang hari itu "yang ga bawa kartu perpus, keluar!!" suasana menjadi gaduh. gua keluar, 'b' juga. kita ke kelas. di kelas kita nyampe barengan. dan gua mulai conv :
"b, gua mau ngomong"
"silahkan"
"oke, gua ga ngacangin lo, tapi tanya manda, tanya nana. lo yang ngacangin gua, mereka juga"
"lah, siapa juga yang ngacangin lo pada, kebalik kali"
"eh dan itu tanpa sebab. mending ya ada sebab, ini. lo ga punya sebab yang jelas. ya udah deh. gua males ribut. gua masih harus padus, ya udah ya b, bye"

dengan santai nya gua keluar dari kelas dan menuju ruang musik.
abis dari padus, b minta maaf (enak bgt parah minta maaf) "ollaaaa, maaf ya. gua yang salah mungkin......" yaa intinya dia minta maaf.

dan hari rabu gua udh balikan layaknya bestfriend sesungguhnya.

okay, today. at 6.32 am, before school hours. dia minjem pr PKn gua, it's okay. its not easy. trus "makasih ya la" "samce samce" "minjem pr ipa dong" "gua belom ngerjain" whaaaaat?? lo masih mau minjem pr ipa gua? sori, emang gua boong. gua udh ngerjain, tp gua ga suka ada orang yang bisa seenaknya copy paste hasil kerja orang lain. paling engga, dia ada usaha dikit. ngerjain dulu kek, atau ga, kalo pr nya susah gua mau bantuin BUKAN NGASIH CONTEKAN. gua ga suka ada orang yang hidup manja. gua ga suka ada orang yang hidupnya suka ga tua diri, ga di perhitungkan. gua ga suka kalo ada orang yang ga mikirin perasaan orang lain yang menjadi object. oke, gua belom selese. dan dia sebel sama gua grgr itu. spesifik ga? alasannya jelas ga? coba gua tanya emang enak ya jadi haters? emang enak ya punya banyak enemies gitu? emang lo rasa hidup lo bakal have fun apa kalo punya enemy, trouble, ngerasa ga sih hidup ga bakal tenang kalo lo punya musuh dan masalah? aduuuh sumpah ya gua masih bete walau lo udh minta maaf.

okeoke bokap udah berkoar, gua udah puas. thanks a lot to fina, iren, manda, nana to be my diary :) BYE

charitas friendly match 7

change your world with your talents

nothing special today ~10 10 10

heyy ppl. remember what date today? yes, october 10th 2010 or 10 10 10



nice and lucky date, right? maybe some single person just find her/his soulmate today. or someone celebrate her/his birthday today. yeah, something happy. i should go to school right now (to celebrate charitas friendly match). but something was wrong, i'm sick. i feel my body comes wrong, i got headache, my head feel droop, slugish, my breath being hot too. and my asthma is on. you must know, when my asthma on, it's not easy to breathing. my breath likes have a sound 'ngik ngok ngik ngok'. list :
- went to church
- lunch at warung bu kris, fatmawati
- played ds
- online -----> now
- go to pim (maybe)
- otm letters to juliet :))
- sleep and wake up at 5.30am tomorrow

so hot on outside, maybe when i go to cfm now, i can fainting cause so hot. i think i can laugh together. collect garbage together. watch a basketball with my friends. but now, i still in my room. with air conditioner is on, radio is on, my acer with modem is on. its really really comfort here. you can try it (of course in your room, not mine :p) but you know, bermain di dunia maya not better than laugh with my friends. yaa, dunia maya tetep aja dunia maya. kita cuma bisa ketawa sendiri, nangis sendiri, ngobrol sama orang di antah berantah dan ngebuat mata kita jadi rusak. jauh lebih enak kalo gua bisa pergi ke cfm atau ke pim sama mama sekarang. its really boring guys. okay, maybe i can sleep now. and maybe i can have nice dream. its better than just chit chat with another world. okay BYEE MY SWEETHEART

my hell world

you know, my dad don't understand with my activities. i think my dad don't understand too with jakarta life and traffic jam. yeah, selesai gua ikut cfm(charitas friendly match) 7 dengan badan letih lesu lunglai cause udh harus nyampe di sekolah td pagi at 7am and baru pulang at 4pm. seharusnya dari ch ke rumah cm 20 menitan kurang lebih, dan tadi gua bener bener badmood dgn keadaan traffic jam jakarta yg ga nyante bgtt. kay, i tell you :

pertama gua nunggu angkot s12 tercintah lamceee bgt, grgr macet gua harus jalan dulu untuk mendapatkan s12 tercintah. sampe di daerah bona indah terjadilah 1st traffic jam on my 'journey' ya. mungkin macetnya 25mntan baru sampe dapur susu dan gua gelisah resah. sampe ada ibu ibu yg kebelet pipis dan dia berulang kali gelisah resah melebihi gua. i got some convertations with her :
me : ah najis macet bgt deh, di marahin nyokap sampe rumah
stranger : emg gini dek jakarta, mulai nyari ribut. pas hari H kiamatnya aja tuh baru ribet
me : haha iya bu. drtd saya udh 25mnt padahal biasanya cm 20mnt sampe rumah
stranger : jakarta udh ga bener, mulai dari pemerintahannya, presiden (no offense mr. sby), sampah di mana mana, macetnya bener bener ga bisa di kompromi deh
me : makanya bu, pas katanya kiamat aja udh sibuk si jakarta, eh tapi sekarang kumat lagi macet di mana mana
stranger : iya nih, mana ibu kebelet pipis, apa pipis di botol aja ya?
me : haha maaf bu saya ga mau liat, mendingan ke toilet umum aja
stranger : hening
oh iya ibu turun di masjid depan aja keburu ngompol
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okay, sampe situ aja conv gua sm stranger yg merupakan ibu ibu kebelet pipis. trs pas di daerah dapur susu terjadilah 2nd traffic jam on my 'journey' rasa gelisah dan resah gua menjadi meraja lela karena si abang memilih untuk putar balik ke pondok labu, OHMYGOOOOSH its not good solution bang. you know, pondok labu adalah ladangnya kemacetan. mereka tidak bisa melihat cermatnya para semut yg mengantri, mereka hanya menyerobot bagaikan ibu ibu ngantri minyak tanah okay? terjadilah 3rd traffic jam on my 'journey' . HELL pondok labu adalah mala petaka gua mendapatkan macet sampe 1jam an lebih gtdeh. astagah mata udh setengah nutup, badan lemes dan mata ga bisa tenang liat para mobil dan motor searching trouble. akhirnya gua memilih untuk berhitung motor yang sudah tidak tau tata krama, hhhhmm kalo ga salah udh nyampe 6an motor nyari masalah hakakakak. untungnya setelah itu gua bisa ngeliatin pasar pondok labu dan berusaha ngitungin orang yang berbaju merah, kuning dan hijau. setelah itu baru gua merasa come back to my world, setelah di pinang gt baru gua bisa ngeliat jalan lurus tanpa deretan mobil dan motor. uououo~

ternyata my hell world today its not finished, mama papa udh nangkring di pintu kamar selayaknya ibu ibu kosan yg nungguin anaknya ga bayar uang selama sebulan. yup, udh gua bilang mereka ga ngerti gimana keadaannya dan seenaknya marahin gua. i just got some tears cause they don't understand me and don't know what happened. yeah, maybe gua cengeng tapi gua ga suka mereka marah karena hal yg ga jelas gitu. gua ga suka mereka seenaknya gitu. sorry mom dad. okedeh badan gua masih lengket, still sleepy, still with my smell (yeah it's not good you know) dan must take a shower right now. BYEE :**

dont cry D';

hey princess, you cant cry cause your prince leave you. just fight with your feel, okay?

itu qoute gua kasih buat temen-temen gua yang lagi nangis darah garagara cowo doang. please, tell me why? just because he forgot you or just because you are not number one in his heart (of course his mom dad, and fave games is number one)? heyy, remember. we are still kid and love (between you and boyf) not too be taken serious. when your boyf chose to decided you as his girlf, dont cry! dont sad! its better than you must cry every night in your room. and single is better (to me, but im in a realitionship now) cause single is means you can looks many handsome boy, but in a realitionship isn't. and dont cry when he has new girlf, dont feel like you easy to forget. if you cry or show that you are jealous, it can makes he happy. so, dont do that!



please, never cry for him, girls. but fight with this feeling. dont let love can controls you. but always controls your feel and your love to him.

"YES"

even just a word, but "YES" is difficult word to say, when we confused.

the most handsome people in my heart

#5 #jude law



i dunno why, but his face always make me melting, ohmy so sexyy

#4 #cory monteith



finn? yes so tall, so make me tiptoe higher

#3 #zac efron



always in my heart. sexy too

#2 #joe jonas



he has cute face. and his mustache so tempting

okay, the cutest and the most handsome boy in my heart is *tooooot~vuvuzela*

#1 #john mayer



JOHN MAYER! always forever in my heart. his voice is very comfert. and his guitar? make you melting! of course john mayer's face, love ya :**

i think my holiday will be boring

yap. its holiday. and every holiday i always said to my parents "mom dad please its holiday, i want vacation! so boring with my activities" but, they never heard me!! oke, mama papa kenapa ka chika boleh jalan-jalan sama temennya? kenapa ka yoan boleh keluar masuk rumah? kenapa olla ga boleh? eventhough i already to change my score and i have good score? oke FINE its not fair! im not baby, im teenage girl right now. i want know the real world. i want know everything. i was growing, i want to do everthing that i want. please mom dad, im just hoping.



yes, alone. without friends and everything cant make me happy right now. so bad

do you believe love at first sight?

some people said "love at first sight its really exist" but i never believe that. love at first sight only affect the outward appearance, not from his behaviour. maybe, gua sering kea gitu. tapi seperti apa yang gua bilang itu cuma karena fisiknya, dan mungkin gua ga tau sifat aslinya. and love at first sight wouldn't survive. gua yakin itu, karena first love gua yg duluuu itu gitu -_- biasa waktu itu gua masih abg labil (okay, actually still until this day)



but, my friend tell me that "love at first sight" happened to her. yes, she is fall in love. and i always listened her story *good bestie* okay, back to "love at first sight" so? what is the true answer? you can tell me what is the answer. i must know, to continue this post *bye my mom is angry cause i havent learn*

i dunno, but i love my life :)

some people say that "i hate my life, i want to die" or something like that. i hate when someone say that, its seems that you dont embrace your life. i know, maybe you have many problem, but God will give you a chance to fight it. gua juga punya masalah, dan gua tau itu harus gua hadapin. gua juga tau kalo masalah yang gua hadapin sekarang ini, itu pasti punya jalan keluar. sometimes i like to pour out my heart to my mom or my sister. its better than you just write it in your diary, cause diary cant give you a solution. my mom allways said "just be patient and strong, you cant do that, my dear. and dont forget to pray and allways hope with Jesus"
thanks to my mom, you are my grit in my hard time :)

i love all in my life
i love my family


i love my friends and bestf


and i love my boyf


MWAH :**

HELO i come back

uouououo~~
setelah gua beberapa abad absen ngeblog karena acara sibuk, manggung sana sini, di canada lah, paris, mexico dan kita bisa bertemu kembali.

pertama tama gua mau ngucapin buat yang muslim, selamat puasa. semoga nasib dan derita kalian selama ini bisa berguna untuk masa depan. Amen.

oke karena gua nonmuslim, jadi gua ga puasa. yaa kalo puasa juga palingan gua biasa aja. makan ga makan juga biasa aja. nyokap aja udah berulang kali nyuruh gua makan, eh mager bgt gua. jadilah gua kurus dan menawan seperti ini.

pas gua di angkot kemaren pulang dari sekolah, ada aja orang yang agak menyinggung hati dan jiwa gua. karena haus dan dahaga ga bisa di tahan jadi gua beli fresfea. sepintas ada mas mas ngeliatin gua dengan begitu menggairahkan. 'yaTuhan, olla takut. olla takut.' pikiran gua udah ke mana mana. gua kira gua bakal di jambret atau di plototin doang. karena keadaan gua sendiri waktu itu, makin takutlah gua. oke, jadi gua naik angkot lagi. pas di angkot gua juga di liatin. 'hanjing, apaan nih? muka gua ada apaan deh drtd di liatin?' pikiran udah melayang ke hal hal mustahil yg negative.

pas gua mau turun dari angkot. si abang angkot yang rupawan-_- mulai bicara 'dek, ini pada puasa' speechless gua langsung ngeluarin duit trus senyum 3 detik dan lari.

itulah kegoblokan gua~

im scared when mama feel lonely

YES i know, i could be happy cause tomorrow go to medan. but, without parents? mungkin di benak beberapa orang berpergian tanpa orang tua itu enak, menyenangkan dan free. ya emang sih, tapi bukan sekarang. papaku ke cina, kakak yang pertama bakal ikut aku ke medan, kakak yang kedua nemenin mama di rumah, kakak yang ketiga study tour ke bromo. mba ku yang pertama pulang kampung dan tinggal mba ku yang kedua. masalahnya dia bener bener ga bisa di percayai. orang kupang, sering ku ejek grgr kerjanya suka ga beres. dia suka keluyuran, kalo masak juga ga enak. ga tau gimana nasip mama yang bakal tinggal di rumah cuma berdua (w/ ka yoan, mba irma)

mama ga biasa sendiri. selama 5 hari penuh mungkin dia cuma di temenin ka yoan sama mba irma. AAA mungkin selama 5 hari juga ka yoan dan mama bakal muntahber grgr masakan si mbae -___-

yaaa i wish aja lah. semoga selamat selamat itu si emak sm kakak gua. takutnya si kupangkipang macem macem AW AW awas ya lu pang, kalo pas gua pulang ada yang ga beres. beeh gua putihin kulit lu! yea -_-

HEY WHAT'S WRONG WITH TWITTER?

sumpah ya 3 hari ini, akhir akhir ini twitter selalu nyari ribut. sumpah kesel banget, pengen di bantai, di penggal, di pacung, di cambuk, yak cukup -_- twitter itu salah satu link yang bakal selalu gua buka ya. jadi tolong @twitter kembali kea dulu. tempat curhat gua tentang keluarga, temen, etc itu sama lu twitter!!

hell o, please dont make me so badmood with you twitter. i love you to be a place of my heart torrent. please come on twitter, i need u soooooo.

tapi gua lebih suka lagi deh kalo twitter eror pas gua lagi di medan nanti. jadi pas gua pulang semuanya udah lancar AAA yay!

really like this song :)

Comfortable

I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, aisle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave.

Can't remember, what went wrong last September
Though I'm sure that you'd remind me, if you had to

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in

I sleep with this new girl i'm still getting used to
my friends all approve, say she's gonna be good for you
they throw me, high fives

She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty

Life of the party
and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
or so they say, say

She thinks I can't see the smile that she's fakin'
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back.


john mayer♥

kalo gua denger lagu ini. gua langsung mikir ternyata kalo cowo baik baik itu juga suka sama cewe baik baik. dan kadang gua suka melakukan hal baik, yang bukan untuk mengikat cowo cowo ya (males bgt deh) tapi karena gua inget lagu ini. ga tau kenapa, lagu ini dan lagu lagu lainnya from john mayer alwaysss make me love neighborhood and my life gitu deh :) thanks ya abangku yang baik @johncmayer hug and love you so much

ohmyGod

sumpah ya gua ga tau apa apa sebelumnya.
tadi pas online, tbtb ada ngajak gua chat nah namanya @....... awalnya dia bilang gini

"eh lo siapa ya?"
"nahlo, lu siapa? kan yg pertama add lu. bukan gua"
"hah? siapa deh?"
"hahaha ga tau -_-"
"anak mana?"
"ch, lu?"

sebelum dia jawab dia udah offline. gua pikir awalnya, 'ah ya udahlah palingan orang iseng pengen kenalan.' jadi gua nyante aja sampe 3 jam kemudian. trus tadi pas gua liat fotonya kakak kelas gua di situ ada comentnya @........ speechless gua langsung mikir 'berani bgt? jangan jangan kakak kelas gua lagi?' dan sumpah gua panik bgt pas buka photos dia ternyata dia beneran kakak kelas gua.

pas gua check dia itu ADENYA KAKAK KELAS GUA JUGA YANG JEGER SETENGAH MAMPUS. ohmyGod gila ya gua bingung bgt sampe sekarang harus ngapain. masuk sekolah masih sebulan. tapi gua takut dia inget nama gua. dan dia bawa pasukan kakak nya buat labrak gua? afraid bgt nih :( oke gua takut banget sekarang AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

rompis - roman picisan

"just like you, no more than love or pityyy"
"boy, please a point your love at me"
"and i hate when i love you so more than anything"
"so hard to not see you for long time"
"i like bad boys, who can make me happy, with the limits"

itu beberapa qoute yang real gua buat sendiri dengan bantuan kamus. ya gua tau bahasa inggris nya agak kacau balau atau sama sekali ga di mengerti. tapi itu tetep aja usaha gua sendiri.

bisa baca sendiri kan? itu qoute tentang hidup gua yang lumayan galau karena cowo cowo ga beraturan. gimana bisa di bilang ga beraturan deh? liat aja deh, contohnya ada cowo yang sampe sekarang masih pdkt sama gua dengan sms tiap hari walau sering ga gua bales selama setahun ini. ohmyy gila, bosen gua mah di buat odkt mulu tanpa hasil. dan dalam setahun itu gua udh putus nyambung dengan orang lain.

kalo gua jadi itu cowo sih, udah gua cari cewe lain. gua? beeh cewe jelek semaput, ga tau sopan santun, yang suaranya toak bgt di kelas. dan tau sendiri lah gua gampang bgt girang kalo di puji, contohnya pas iren bilang gini "la, lu tuh cantik kalo rambut di panjangin trus badan agak gemuk dikit" atau "kalo di suruh tukeran gua pengen tukeran badan sama muka lu la". kalo leoni "ciye cantik. sip dah rambut bagus muka sebatas rata rata, cukuplah" kalo rara "olla tuh cantik ya" kalo tara "lu tuh cantik la, gua nih gembel bgt" dan lain lain kata dari temen gua yang mungkin setengah waras pas ngomong gitu. gua sangat sangat melt and ngefly pas denger kata kea gitu. aw rasanya gua udah jadi calon miss universe gitu (loh?).

tapi ada juga yang nyebelin kea kata fina "week, olla cantik? bisa bisa jabatan obama langsung turun deh" ga boong itu lebay bgt tapi mungkin aja jadi kenyataan grgr muka absurd setengah jadi gua ini. cekaa. HAHA

Sinchan vs Tuyul

OKE lu bisa liat sendiri itu sinchan dan tuyul yang bakal gua ceritakan.

sepulang kakak gua dari Australia buat home stay dia ngebawain gua seribusatu barang baru, dan yang unik dan termasuk most best bestnya adalah patung 3 sinchan dan tuyul ini. cuma 8cm gitu tingginya dan lucu bgt soalnya ada benjolan di bawahnya. dan di benjolan itu ada lubang super duper kecil yang mirip kea punya cowo jaman sekarang bila sudah di sunat. HAHA.

"ka chika, ini burung?"
"iyaiya, lucu kan dek?"
"lucu lucu, tapi burungnya buat apa?"

ka chika langsung ke dapur dan bawa termos berisi air panas.

"buat apaan tuh ka?"
"liat aja"

dia nuangin air panas itu ke patung sinchan dan tuyul. ga lama setelah itu keluar air dingin dari benjolan itu. sumpah lucu bgt pengen gua tonjok, tapi karena itu patung dan berupa bernjolan jadi ga mungkin gua tonjok. semoga benjolan itu tetep berair dan tetep mereka berempat jaga sampe kakak gua bawa yang cewe jadi mereka bisa kawin :)

confused

tunggu....

postan gua sebelumnya mana? kenapa pas gua click yg bonjour - au revour malah ganti background? lah? ini gua yang gaptek atau gimana deh? keren sih keren tapi gua jadi bingung bgt parah. masa postan sebelumnya harus di apus? atau di copy dari awal? hah? cape bloon.

jadi gimana? gua ga ngerti harus di bawa kemana hubungan kita (?). jadi harus di bawa ke mana postan sebelumnya? yeee males tau ga gua. lu kira gua cewe rajin baik dan penyabar aja. kagak?

oke post yang ini sebenarnya ga guna. ga usah di baca karena emg ga guna.

8th grade

YES! hari ini tepatnya tanggal 11 Juni, adalah hari terakhir gua di kelas 7. yaaa itu pun kalo gua naik, nilai mat gua di bawah rata rata selama ini. tapi ulangan umum gua lancar dan ga ada remed. inget ya gua ga nyogok sama sekali sama guru buat ga remed ulangan umum. ini real dari hasil kerja keras gua selama ini. DEMI APAPUN, pas tadi gua ambil baju baru ke bu vero (okay dia guru bio dan fisika gua yang merupakan orang batak dan kalo ngomong sama gua nyambung, walau banyak di benci anak anak gua malah pengen di ajar dia lagi :)) gua pun mulai nanya nanya soal gua naik apa ga :)

"bu bu saya naik ga nih? ayo dong bu kasih tau ke saya aja lah. saya naik ga bu?"

"tenang aja" dia pun ngasih jempol ke gua sambil bergoyang yang semakin membingungkan gua.

"hah? gimana nih bu, saya naik?"

"KAMU NAIK LA, jangan lupa banyak berzikir biar dosamu yang banyak itu di ampunin sama Tuhan(?), trus jangan lupa bawain ibu saksang (makanan batak) sama babi panggang ya la ya?"

"AAAA thanks ya bu. beneran bu? AA makasih tenang aja bu itu bisa di serahin kok makasiiih buuu" speechless gua langsung teriak soalnya gua seneng bgt, lagian pa wahyu (guru mat gua, yang lumayan genit dan freak dan menyebalkan grgr kecentilan dia itu, tapi tetep fun) udah wanti wanti sama gua kalo nilainya bakal jelek -_-

-smooch to my teacher mrs. veronika-

walau bu vero itu cerewet setengah mati dan banyak anak anak yang sebel sama dia. GUA SAMA SEKALI GA BENCI BU VERO. why? dia baik bgt yaAllah sama gua, dia bisa ngertiin perasaan gua dan dia nyambung sama gua :)
okay satu lagi gua masih bingung apa itu berzikir? setau gua itu ngasih duit ke orang mampu? right? dan gua bingung gimana caranya bawa saksang sepanci dan babi panggang sepiring buat bu vero. nanti di kira gua lagi jualan masakan batak lagi.

Intinya gua bahagia bgt sekarang soalnya gua udh tau hasilnya kalo gua naik, walau dengan prestasi yang pas pasan. tapi itu harus gua syukuri :) walaupun masih panik buat besok yang bakal camping, ga tau gimana api unggunnya ga tau gimana acara pentasnya dan ga tau gimana jerit malemnya AA

gutlak olla! you can do it. but hard to do, believe you can :) and thanks very much to Jesus, save and keep me in 7 days and in 1 year in my life. ILY